Have you been in love but it hurts you inside . Its like trying to eat all the fats but keep getting all skinny . Like studying so hard but keep failing . Like going out to no direction , no destination . And you know it just wont last . Someone's holding back . And holding back is the hardest thing to feel , you just dont know when to let go . 

Hurt , and be blame . 

Love life on hanging balance ;

To let go , or to stay . 

Ask yourself ; 

When is the last time you feel happy , joy . You feel uplifted . Courage . When you are warmth in his arms . Have you sleep in deep love and passion . Cry in moments you want to stay indulge in . Soak in pure happiness no one else could catch it for you .

Or  Do you feel insecure . Confused . Left out . Or do you scream for trust and longing for faith .  Sulk in fake kisses hide behind blind words . Strangling in deep sorrow . Not knowing if this is the right path . In the core , you're dying .

Choose , YOU .

Give it time to nurture ; feed it with faith , choke it with love , shine it with joy and let the bug shade in its dark side . Place it inside a jar where none can touch but always can see . May it grow to be beautiful & in peace .

You know you wont like what you'll see . Its the truth . Truth of all lies . Lies upon the vow . Vows that never actually bond . That is why you dont feel the presence of sweetness curl around . Whatever that you had for me was always a lie . 

Im not sure how he feels about me anymore . & I am not sure if its real . Everything seems to be ... unclear . Its fading away.  I can barely sense the presence of pureness . I have doubts . I am in doubts , of every moments to come . My soul is giving up . You never notice . And when nothing is left to be cherish , let me be blame .